Stumbled across this weekly challenge to write on a word for 5 minutes and share. Thought I'd join the fun. This week's word = BELONG
I belong to a large family but I have often felt as if I did not, in fact, belong. As crazy as it sounds to imagine that a couple who already had nine kids would adopt a tenth, there was a time when I wondered if that weren't the case. Doesn't every tween think that? I mean really, how can I belong to this family? I don't fit in.
This fear (I was trying to find a different, less negative sounding word, but when you're 13 and you feel like there is no place for you, fear is the descriptor) of not belonging waxed and waned my entire life; continues to do so. I didn't really belong with the "smart crowd" in high school who all had professional parents and seemed to know what was going on. I didn't belong in college - not intellectual enough. And yet, I didn't belong to my working class family either. My sisters all had husbands, kids, divorces and I was still trying to figure out if I should go to grad school.
(And, there's the timer letting me know 5 minutes is up. I'll stop writing here, but I like this prompt and will continue to see what this turns into. Thanks Lisa-Jo Baker for the prompt.)